I'm charming enough to make your nightmares smile.
I have Miserable Mornings and Neverending Nights.
I'm a gamer.
I'm a raver.
I'm a Girl Gone Geek.
I'm a pole dancing novice
I'm Brutally Honest
I can be nice
I'm a Key blade master
I'm an alien princess
I'm an otome.
I'm insane.
Have a Fucking Good Day.
I love to learn. I love the way that books get a bit fatter each time you read them. I enjoy high tech toasters. I love Chemistry. I enjoy writing letters. I would die for pole dancing. Breakfast is the shit. I like not mechanical pencils. I like asking questions. I like empty houses. I like liking things.
Mad,Bad and Dangerous to Know
So I did a little pole today.
Good I’m so rusty.
My toes are so unpointed.
Muscles are weak.
New summer goals.
I dunno What I’m doing.
I’m just ready to go home……
When I should be studying….
Giants.
I’m always the only girl in a group of boys.
They are all so much bigger than me.
I always feel so small but at the same time safe and protected.
Today I realized how truly lucky I am to have such good friends.
They made me a princess again.
I’m happy to be their princess.
I never did think about it but I guess being around a bunch of gross guys all day does make me kinda stand out to them but why they treasure me so much I’ll never know.
Khalif said I was like snow white but instead of Seven dwarfs I have giants.
Giants to protect me.
Keep me safe.
I Love them all so dearly.
I’m so happy.
I feel almost whole again.
Almost.
I know it pains them.
To watch me suffer so but my heart will not heal nor harden.
I hope they can forgive me. I’m not as strong as them.
I will be someday but today I need them to protect me..
Watch Disney Movies…
And Doing Chemistry.
So Today Me and my Friend Khalif went to an Art Museum and they had this video game exhibit that featured this piece called Move.
Guys, Let me tell you it was epic.
The machine used your body movements to create a work of art while presenting a physical challenge.
This is me trying the Jump Challenge.
I had so much fun.
Fucking with my camera
I really did like having my face like this.
My best friend Blows Kisses from His Forehead.
Well okay then…..
And then I realized
I don’t want anyone to love me.
Because I’m me.
I can’t see myself with anyone else because I suppose I don’t want to be with anyone else that much.
What I really want in life is bigger than love but less complicated than romance.
It’s simple but still so hard to accomplish.
I don’t know if I’m scared of love.
I don’t know if I’m scared to love .
But I do know it’s not that important to me.
Not anymore.
I have what most people spend eons and lifetimes searching for.
Decent and unconditionally loving companions.
So What if they aren’t in the forms of lovers.
Its gets the bloody job done.
So Why, why can’t I shake this feeling.
Feelings are gay.
